Alternate Vision talks about my feeling that folk’s perception of me is different than who I am, and the sense of not belonging. Particularly, feeling like people see me as an unrealistic being who has it all figured out, forgetting that I’m just a person with emotions and issues of my own. When I wrote it, I was feeling that extra strongly, and yearning to find a place to fit and be seen as I am.
lyrics
I hate the rain
Washes away
My melancholy disguise
Time passes by
I don’t know why
I let myself down with every breath
Mandatory secrets kept
My memories unfold
Can’t remember the last time I slept
This feeling’s growing old, so
Just tear me away
I’m not from here
I disappear
Oh god, is this even real
Mandatory secrets kept
My memories unfold
Can’t remember the last time I slept
This feeling’s growing old
Just tear me away
My eyes are heavy from the weight of
My own growing lies
My chest is weak
Can’t feel a thing
I don’t want to survive
Just tear me away
Just want to be who I truly am
And seen without disguise
Tired of being seen through the Devil’s deceiving eyes
Just tear me away
credits
from Alternate Vision,
track released July 14, 2021
Music and Lyrics: Annapurna Knox Tobler
Performance: AP Tobler
Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Ryan Perras at District Recording San Jose, CA
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