Solemn Farewell is at its core a suicide note. As someone who has had suicidal thoughts, the song explores some of my thoughts in my darkest times. In the chorus I sing the line, “I was never here to begin with,” essentially meaning that physically killing myself wouldn’t make much of a difference, because I was already dead.
lyrics
I’ve been staring at these pages for years
In a cyclical state
Replaying all my fears
And to trust oneself can only end in demise
Bare my teeth, show the facade, and all the lies
I was never here to begin with
Swallow my self-made myths
It was always slaughtering my pride
These are my last goodbyes
I’ve been suffocating
Tearing myself up
Reached the point of no return
I’ve had enough
With these solemn words
I leave it up to you
To hold back is to deceive
So tell the truth
I was never here to begin with
Swallow my self-made myths
It was always slaughtering my pride
These are my last goodbyes
And I don’t have a choice
Something has to die to feel free
Choking, lost my voice
Who am I supposed to be
I was never here to begin with
Swallow my self-made myths
It was always right by my side
These are my last goodbyes
credits
from Alternate Vision,
track released July 14, 2021
Music and Lyrics: Annapurna Knox Tobler
Performance: AP Tobler
Recorded, Mixed, and Mastered by Ryan Perras at District Recording San Jose, CA
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